Posted by: Jeannie | February 10, 2010

Latest Blessings and Prayer Requests :)

Blessings from February 5th to the 11th:

Last weekend’s snow and ice storm not being near as bad as was originally predicted and no loss of power!

Almost missing God’s blessings the evening of the 8th:  focused on my car being snow-plowed in, but neighbors who came and shoveled it out for me; accidentally driving out on a large sheet of iced-over parking lot and getting stuck, to have complete strangers come and push the car back off; to steering then messing up, though the car still got me safely home in spite of it.  School mechanic has agreed to look at the car’s steering the beginning of next week after this newest batch of ice and snow passes this week.

Being able to stay home and stay safe through two severe winter storms that came one almost right after the other; no pressures, even for work, to have to go out and chance the road conditions.

The new apartment finally passing HUD inspection.

Two years ago tonight, I came extremely close to taking my own life.  It was my roommate, Karen, who walked into my room to check on me and found me researching suicide methods on the internet.  She didn’t know I’d already made my decision on how I was going to end things and made the mistake of letting me leave the house that evening to run another friend home, using that excuse to get out from under her watchful eye.  She spent the next several hours, into the early morning hours, trying to wait up for me, reading her Bible, and praying over me.  I spent those same hours driving around Beckley and the surrounding areas going back and forth on carrying through and ending everything for myself.  I was extremely angry, rude, and very unkind when I finally came home to find her still waiting up for me and demanding that we were going to talk about this and now.  We spent the next four hours working on multiple issues until Karen felt I was to the place where I was no longer considering suicide anymore and then the issue turned to my salvation.  Karen’s suspicions had been right that I had spent years trying to “earn” the salvation I’d claimed I’d accepted.  While I knew it was supposed to be by faith, and claimed I’d accepted it that way, my actions for years had spoken otherwise.  I was constantly trying to make myself good enough, constantly failing at it, constantly becoming devastated over it, and continuously repeating the cycle.  It was Karen who finally helped me in understanding that as long as I kept trying to “earn” it I was going to keep failing at it, and that salvation truly is by faith alone.  At about 5am, on the morning of February 11th, 2008, I accepted God’s salvation and not my own idea of it.  I know it was God working through you, Karen, but thank you for letting Him do so!

Prayer requests:

That somehow I can get the more than solid inch thick ice off of my steps without having to use a sledge-hammer 🙂 and without hurting my shoulders.

Dealing with aggravation from an increasingly itching cast with three more weeks left to go.


Responses

  1. I just wanted to write and say thank you for being so open and candid about things. You have been an inspiration to me in many little ways since we became FB friends. 🙂

  2. Jeannie, I sure didn’t know all that. Thanks for sharing. I’m so thankful for Karen and the Lord’s grace upon her to minister to you! It’s good to keep looking ahead and reaching toward the mark, but we don’t ever want to forget from where we’ve come so we can remember how great God is!

  3. Thank you both!


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